I can’t self develop cause I’m bitter

Be timely and decisive, think hard and carefully. Be bold, be gentle. Care a lot, don’t care at all. Be positive in these ways, be negative in these ways. More good food, less bad food. This exercise is good, THIS exercise is bad. Don’t sleep too much, you’re wasting away your life; but sleep and rest aplenty.

Self-development attempts have got me in the blues. As I try to develop, new information supersedes this past best practice. As I try to be my best, opportunities fall away. As I endeavour that Matt 2.0 has arrived, I slip easily back into poor qualities. But self-deveopment tells me, again and again, ad infinitum that I’ve got a shot a million dollars a year with 12 automated money earning platforms. Frankly, I’ve had enough of Medium and its grandiosity. Perhaps I can’t self develop because I choose to buy into the very successful writers’ lifestyles that are mountainsides away from my position just above the gungy swamp.

Now, it is time to construct a life with the pieces of self help info I’ve gleaned from this widely popular, and largely beneficial platform. Now is the time to stop reading and start doing. I’m slowly drowning in ‘5 quotes that pick me up’ and ‘6 reasons you aren’t living up to your potential’. The shocking, dramatic headlines have desensitised me to the very information I could respond well to.

I have personally done my best at staying true to my craft and writing content that is authentically me. This author, Writer Mip, had always been the true Mip. And my 57ish followers appreciated bits of that, which humbles me. It is just that self development is a bottom pit. This golden glowing Mippy, who is closer to self-transcending perfection, is a fraud, an imposter, an intruder in the dominant worldviews of self-help. Alas, I’ve had enough. Losing the payment feature was a strong antecedent in making me decide this pointless blog that very few appreciated is gone. Lost. No going back.

Bye Medium, I’ve enjoyed trying to be an aware human. Come interview me in 2–3 years…

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Just a caught spirit in the Australian Western capitalist patriarchy, enacting loving kindness. Intellectual, humble, neurodivergent, fallible. X

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Just a caught spirit in the Australian Western capitalist patriarchy, enacting loving kindness. Intellectual, humble, neurodivergent, fallible. X

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